Jill Bolte Taylor's "stroke of insight"

is there something that will temporarily and safely paralyze the left hemisphere of my brain?

http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/jill_bolte_taylor_s_powerful_stroke_of_insight.html

plows

sometimes my mom and i go for a night stroll around our neighborhood.  tonight, we were joined by some other indian women on our street.  they get some exercise, they gossip.  i'm glad they have this, but in the back of my mind i'm thinking about how i so desperately don't want this to be me; the highlight of my day exchanging complaints and rumors with other women.  i fantasize of being adventurous till the end and rather than dying my hair, somehow looking good with my greys, as if they were beautiful evidence of my experiences in this world, rather than a decay of youth.

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the east coast is too crowded.  i want to be in a part of the country where the sky is big and you can see everything for miles and miles, even a patch of darkness over some place far away where it's raining. 

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one thing i'm definitely sick of doing is checking my phone for the time.  i've decided to buy myself a watch, when a special one finds me.

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a puppy.  growing up, this is what i wanted most, but lately i've been dreaming about owning a short haired, pure black boy kitten.  there is something so handsome about male cats.  

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today, i've been obsessed with female folkly indie rock.  like jenny owen youngs.  she's a real cool girl from jersey and i'm convinced that if we were to meet, we'd be friends.  well.. at least i would want to be.

and the lovely charlyn marie marshall, aka cat power.

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"I've been talking a lot to Suki recently about just a blanket feeling of restlessness, that there's got to be something more. Something bigger to take on, something faster to chase, something more beautiful to see."  

- Jamie's Blog

yesss!  something is for sure missing, but we don't know what.  i think i need some sort of illumination that would let me see something i encounter everyday like i've never seen it before, or better yet.. enter some completely unknown realm.  i'm ready for it!  i neeeeeed it.  but where is it?

take two

using film that expired six years ago might have contributed to the lameness of my first roll with the manual.  i just got my pictures back from roll two!  with new film!  they're not that great, but better.  here's one of my favorites:more practice would help, but with camera batteries, film & developing, this is way too expensive of a process to happen too often :(

and of course, happpppy 4th!  i hope you have plans to go see some yanhua, what an article on nj.com has told me is the chinese word for fireworks, or "smoke flowers."  in some indian and pakistani languages, it's pataka.  :)

good fortune

i'd like to think i'm smarter than buying into cliche, oversimplified images - but alas, i have stereotyped the atlantic city boardwalk psychic.  when i went in for my cheap thrill, each piece of non gypsy-esque garment, every bulb brightly lighting the room (not the richly decorated, dim tent) together with the utterly ordinary face across from me so quickly and cleanly shattered the mystique i'd built up.  bummer.

a few hours later, we walked past another place, exchanged a look and a shrug and impulsively headed over.  i got another disillusioning setting but the SAME PSYCHIC READING!!  how could these two different people possibly spin me identical predictions?!!  so, second shock of the day: maybe palm reading is not complete bull.

revelation number three: my favorite place to chill is under vacant piers.

awesome photo cred goes to david.

now playing: Isreal Kamamawiwo'ole's cover of "Over the Rainbow"