could you look me in the eye and tell me that you're happy?

I HIGHLY recommend Grey's Dog on University.... Alex took me there yesterday, and it was pretty fantastically delicious.  A tad pricey for a fairly casual lunch tho..  Wait, actually NO, I don't recommend.. I don't want it to become the next think coffee.  Remember last year when you could actually find a seat in the place?  *sigh*

(speaking of, here's a pretty funny excerpt of a review I recently read:

"Then when you finallllly find a seat, all these NYU kids with their fancy Mac computers look at you like you're an oddity for not being pre-pubescent or wearing the latest Urban clothes.")

hahaha that is so dead on  >.<

ANYWAY, what was I talking about?  Oh yea, Grey's Dog.  It's sort of like a small, miss it if you don't look for it, sandwich/salad/soup/coffee place.  We randomly ran into Patty and Alana ahead of us in line, so the four of us had one of those marvelously leisurely lunches.

So an aspiring journalist, nutritionist, film maker, and [contemplating] art therapist sat around a tiny table chewing over their sandwiches, soup, and futures.  There are, without a doubt, beaten tracks to fairly guaranteed financial security.  The four of us are paying an awful lot to go to school to take side roads, and we're not quite sure where they will lead us.  I admire them for refusing to deny passion (it's definitely not an easy decision).  

I just want to be happy.  Happiness is linked with money.  I feel that some people get lost in that association and forget about the happy part.  To paraphrase Patty, think about all the people that have done something great and the people that you admire.  Did any one of them follow the prescribed path to the "top?"  At the same time though, it's realistically not as easy as just "drop everything and do what you love."  However, as time passes, I'm growing sure I'm not fated to have a wholly concrete, walled-in career.  I need to be doing something with a level of abstraction and imagination - however small, it needs to be there.  I'll grow restless if I don't have it somewhere..  I just need to figure out how to fit it into my life and make it work.  I've probably analyzed a half dozen possible paths I could take.  Well, I've got time.  I'll see where life takes me, try to stay true to myself and.. happy.

i'm up in the clouds, and i can't come down

i caught a rainbowww!
i don't know how i'm going to deal with leaving with this room...
*looks out window*

look at the sun, how it glows in a million ways

I look west - darkness still envelops most of upper manhattan.

I look east - shades of cadmium yellow, burnt orange, muted reds and raw sienna interweave at the horizon separated by a strip of warm, rosy violet from the still payne's gray sky above.

The sunrise is so special because not many people are up yet, so in that way, it becomes an exclusively beautiful, exceedingly personal and private tranquil period.

Living at Water Street has allowed me to bask in the serenity of this stunning phenomenon every [clear] morning.  The bright light naturally and gently nudges you awake.  The gorgeous colors streaking the skyline let you know something extraordinarily awe-inspiring is about to happen.  So I take it in... and then go right back to sleep =)

fly like an eagle

"blog about our adventures!" -Jessiah Yosef

Dear Mr. C,

I'd like to extend my sincerest thanks for putting J-yoh in the same group as me in 11th grade gov so she could realize how much I complete her life.

Mucho Thankings,

Sooks

This weekend has been pretty perfect.  Each day was fabulous in its own, unique way.  The content-ness is just flowing me through me so nicely that even my muscles feel more relaxed (if that even makes sense at all).

now playing: "fair" - remy zero

now avoiding:  work.  anything too real.

So anyway, this blog is for Jessie.  Even though she's two feet from me (TALKING TO ME) right now.  Even though we spent the whole day together.  (We're super duper lame, deal with it).

Since sleeping in the same rectangle of space isn't enough for us, we FINALLY went to Junior's.  It was a crime against our taste buds we waited so long.

We played role reversal - Jessie ordered the salad and I the (BACON!!) cheeseburger.  MMmmHm.

 

 

                 

It was so fabulous.  I didn't even feel like I was gross afterwards.  Not even after the chocolate swirl marble cheesecake!  Quality =)

Afterwards, we meandered in the cold around Times Square before we parted ways.  Or so I THOUGHT.

so0kie: the diwali festival outside is getting WAY noisier

troxel317:  haha no way 

so0kie:  yea the indians are multiplying

so0kie: i think i'll grab my textbook and find a nice coffee shop

troxel317:  haha i think i'm gonna go work at kmec

troxel317: you should come to kmec!

so0kie: OMG perhaps i should

troxel317:  OMG WE CAN STUDY TOGETHER

so0kie:  but its so far!

troxel317:  NO ITS NOT

troxel317: you are such a loser

troxel317:  it's a $15 min ride

troxel317:  i mean 15 min hahahaha

so0kie:  that's SO expensive.  i'd only pay $10 for you.

troxel317: =0

troxel317:  i think you'd like it

so0kie:  i could fly to you

troxel317:  you could try, flap your wings

troxel317:  you know

so0kie:  ok i'll go up to the penthouse now

so0kie:  if i don't see you in an hour, turn on the news.

We eventually ended up at Cosi.  I had never been.  My drink was meh, but the atmosphere was to my likin fo sho.  I'll be back.

This post is essentially a waste of cyber space, but I don't really care.  I'll look back on this later and remember how much I love my roomie.  AW.

sooo, jessieeeeee.. i had a really good time tonight.   call me?  ;-)

a half a million thoughts are flowing through my mind

inhibition

"a feeling that makes one self-conscious and unable to act in a relaxed and natural way"

let it go - jump in

are you willing to risk your life?

As of today...

1 )  I'm all of sudden randomly going skydiving this saturday! YAY =D

... however the 7 page waiver basically makes it clear that i need to accept the fact that i might die
... allen sent us videos of sky diving accidents -.-
... I'm not so afraid of jumping out of a plane, but i have to admit, I'm worried about something going wrong technically
... i'm so not ready to leave this world. the only thing worse than dying would be getting injured
... because then my parents would killlll me (who have no idea i'm going by the way)


2)  I got into Study Abroad Florence! YAY =D

... however my parents say i absolutely can't do it
... i'm contemplating getting on a plane and going anyway
... but my life would be over because then my parents would killlll me


hrrmmmmmm.

ok, i better go be nerdy... first water street book club meeting at 8:30 yo! (FREEEEEE BOOKS!!!)  *pushes glasses up nose*

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the only two songs i listened to ALL day:  "shh" & "holding out for a hero" by frou frou

somewhere just beyond my reach, there's someone reaching back for me